I am no Hero... I am H.E.R

A world of tears, that guide love and understanding.  Movement is inspired by emotional connections when emotions are manipulated to a point of disconnection.


No longer acceptable to be human, love is now a fusion of natural emotion and unnatural logic.  Truth is a matter of perspective, though illusions of lies are considered comforting and required.  


Don't love me if lying is the only way to tell me your truth.  My tomorrow is not your's to determine, it is mine, to decide what I would like and what I want.  It is my love that I chose to give, and if the person you are as you are is not deserving of my love, then accept the truth and move on.  


My time and space is my dimension to choose directive, not yours.  I choose you to share directive with me not to direct me.  As I would not direct you, though truth be told we both know that I could.  


I would not want to be told how to live a life that has been given me as mine, I offer the same respect.  When my actions read that you are who you are, but you can not be trusted, then I will let you be you 


Alone. 


Loneliness is a truth that we learn not to question, but to accept and understand as the knowledge that it speaks.  Understanding comes from experiencing the unknown, but loneliness and embrace of time alone places development into self that speaks a necessary truth.  


Down the line he may look again and understand that she was no hero, but she was honest, enlightened, and respectable.  She was H.E.R.


© 2012 Phirefree

I'm in Love....

After a long day of texting back and forth, my day ended with King (that's what I call him) calling me somewhat distraught because of my slow response to his attempts at communication.  I admit that I was inconsiderate and that I could have been more considerate and understanding because I don't appreciate being left hanging when I have someone that is important to speak to in my life.  However, this was a day that we had a short conversation AND he spent a large deal of it, explaining to me how he felt, though I admitted that I understood, I was at fault and I am sorry.

In retrospect, my King has told me that he can push an issue to make sure that he is understood, and that is exactly what happened.  Our 20 minute phone conversation was 10 minutes of him making sure that I understood that he felt unappreciated and undervalued because I did not respond to him. He did tell me that this is a flaw, and now I know first hand that he sure can push an issue.  Though, he is still not as bad as I have experienced.  Though, he over reacted and I told him that he is going to get that under control.

I had to express this somehow.  I am totally unbelievably, stupidly in love with this man.  Stupidly!!  That conversation was unbelievable, except when I thought about how pressing that shit was, and then it dawned on me, he was pressing an issue that was important to him, and he needed me to understand that I was important and acted as though he was not important.

I completely disregarded my King's feelings.  I behaved insensitively.  However, in his expression of my actions as pressing as he did, I did not realize until later that he was pressing the issue.  So, as horribly annoyed as I am by the fact that our conversation was cut short and he spent the majority of it telling me that I was not considerate of how he felt, he expressed in his own flawed manner that he felt taken for granted.  A position that I have been in many many many times.  I have a man that has allowed me to nurture a rose, beautiful, soft, petals of velvet, color vibrant, touch sweet and vulnerable.  I will cherish that forever.

Being (God's Love)

A listening ear
Serene in presence

Soft words
peace
Rest my heart
Messaging
Spiritual
soothing
reassuring
Silk
Drip through my mind

Still
Tell me

Whisper softly
Gently

I am not alone
No fear
Thoughts are true
My heart
You understand
Silence

You void sadness
worry

My smile touches you
Even when only within
My cares are true

As you created me
Meaningful
Selfless

Me
different

Redefined
Well defined
Undefined

Me
A woman
A world
An unexplained universe


Your truth
Your being
Your hesitations
Rejuvenate my spirit
Your trust
Eloquent nature

My passion
Open
to
for
through sharing
The softness of my gentle pillow

The gentle softness of my pillow

My gentle pillow’s softness
A strong foundation of love
Here for understanding

Acceptance
Open-mindedness
non judgment

As you made me
Woman as you made me
Woman in your image

Woman as love
©  Phire Free2011